Note Cat

This is my email

That is weird 

My first email from back 

right after college 

when I started freelancing

I want to again

So many things to do as a writer

The important thing 

is to make some money

from your craft 

so you can do a lot 

with your life 

including your art

Same note 

as last note

Weird

What is this

However we 

can definitely do 

a raffle if 

they still want 

Why would

anyone write 

the same note

twice

What is that

Raffles 

Jesus

Giving away stuff

Life in general 

For a green 

recipe about kale

and other vegetables

Maybe from the time period

of Kat Tsui

with whom 

I don't hang anymore

Because she is in California

Oh well

Oh well 

This is probably

a dance-related note

Maybe open house-related stuff

So I see they wanted

to do a raffle 

Okay 

We went to the conference

They should promote me

and pay me more

Especially since 

I wrote the grant 

to get them here

Life

Okay now

I remember 

how figure skating

made me fluid 

and proud

and somewhat hopeful 

We did all this 

media relations

planning

and we felt great 

Yes we did 

It is good 

to have someone

else there

on the quest

interacting

involving

and

you know

Most of the time

I want to escape

myself in an experience

that is not self

but potential and action

and intercourse

Well just beginning

with the frying pan

this time we 

launched 

into a green strange

breakfast 

Sister distant

divorces the husband

More often than not

they desire you

to pull the heartstrings

Isn't that right

and grand

Isn't that most beautiful 

Increasingly sad

and depressed

for no reason

Guilt and no pleasure

Fear on all sides

This thought and that thought

cannot speak

Rightly a spring 

bird enters sky

and shows himself

clearly and thoughtfully

I hope for 

great fun

and free hands

Marketing 

We knew

all about the expectations 

of jelly

once

See through 

to the vehicle cat spirit 

of vast notions 

A blank page

with a square around

the name of the publisher

of a few community newspapers

in DC

Buy some 

advertising

Maybe

because they ran 

a big story on

your company 

This cat does not

have to 

exist to

rest peacefully

and be

cool 

The fan eyeball

blowing toward

me in the nice warm

warehouse

Do I have to 

live many years

or just a few

Some of these

scratched notes

tend to be lucid

Others are 

the clouded fearful

mind doing

the soft

nonsense 

dances 

at night 

like a world

different 

from knowing

these choreographers

At the bridge

for Roman music 

Reading through 

the Tolstoy book

Note on 

annual report 

More of the interview

Not sure

if I still care about this

kind of thing

This is the note

cat

Not the police

We used to

interview

younger dancers

by asking them

sterile questions

about education

and career path

A cat can have

the right kind 

of ice cream

face 

This note 

is about the boss's phone

number or 

more likely

a note on an important

number to be 

relayed to the boss

What is a square note 

all about

I wonder

why I made this

When did I make this

I wonder

I could have paid

closer

attention to

geometry 

in 

school 

Okay

Media relations tasks 

for dance company

Showing up inside

the tunnel

for sensual meeting

after work

We always

have meetings 

to refocus 

our efforts

Great

They took hold

of me so that 

I could enjoy

the spring

that is running away

And I think I need

to listen to music

and be cheerful

like falling 

from a tree into 

the cup of the tree

and arms bloodied

Nice time

in rain and

free feelings

for birds

I recall working

with Margaret

which was frankly 

miserable

Oh well

Margaret 

is gone from the job

She cannot boss

me around anymore

In fact

I am in her seat

now as 

development director 

Running a dance 

summer camp

and youth employment program

and being excited

for the kids

This cat 

sees into the philanthropic heart

beyond smoke

and is not scared

but elated

Where are we

this evening

when we are about to have dinner

with one friend

while thinking about another

Most people

are genuine and good

the great cat 

thinks

What would it mean

to infuse

more cultural competency

into our program

delivery

Why 

Do you remember

the guy spraying

the bug and rat poison

under our desks

What field of study

is this shy cat

examining 

Life skills include

nutrition

job readiness

and financial literacy

I thought about Athena

looking at that note

How strange

How real

Reaching the diverse

community

through artistic

cultural

and linguistic

outreach

and open invitations

Feeling

real love

looking back 

upon 

our work

With all different

youth far and near

who are the colorful fabric

sewn above

our heads

A hot air balloon

transporting

our basket of 

mission 

vision

and ideas 

Cat says

this is our simple

end of examination 

Where are we

I bless you 

second to last 

page

scrawled lastly 

The final 

cat 

thirsts 

not